It's been a tough year has 2008. Not in a bad way, in a trying, testing way. In a way that makes you fight for what makes you happy.I think I've started to lose that battle. I haven't slept a full night in a few weeks. I haven't played music (not on a sound system) of any kind in a long time. I think it's all tied together, I do.I passionately love my life and my job. But life has got to be about more than one passion hasn't it? I am struggling to separate my life from my work and my passion from both of those.Things need to be balanced and I don't think I'm doing a good job.Things that make me happy:Poker (playing live tournaments)Guitar (playing it)Writing musicReadingWriting (for myself)Listening to musicSpending time aloneTrainingI'm really not managing to do alot of the above things. It's tough as those of you with jobs, ambitions and busy lives will know and agree. I really can't understand how some of the people I know manage it. I struggle.This is probably the first post in a long time that I've blogged on here that has some sincerity about it. I've been extremely unmotivated to blog on here thanks to the demands of SA Rocks and Nudjit. This might not change too soon, but we can always hope!