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I watched an interesting film last night. Perhaps one of the best films I’ve seen in fact.

I felt inspired, I felt motivated and moved to change.

I wasn’t inspired to change anything in particular, just to move towards change, changing things, change as an existential concept and change as a tangible and achievable goal.

Then in other aspects of my everyday life I am faced with people who speak of change, you talk of change as if it is the next big thing. It’s not. Change is the biggest thing. Now. And guess what? It always will be.

Change is what great people aspire to and change is what great people achieve.

Change the way you write, talk, live, drive to work, answer the phone, your house, car or blog design, change anything. Whatever it is, we all want change.

I am not one to post rhetorical questions but let me ask, are you a person who talks about change or are you changing the world?

It’s been a tough year has 2008. Not in a bad way, in a trying, testing way. In a way that makes you fight for what makes you happy.

I think I’ve started to lose that battle. I haven’t slept a full night in a few weeks. I haven’t played music (not on a sound system) of any kind in a long time. I think it’s all tied together, I do.

I passionately love my life and my job. But life has got to be about more than one passion hasn’t it? I am struggling to separate my life from my work and my passion from both of those.

Things need to be balanced and I don’t think I’m doing a good job.

Things that make me happy:

Poker (playing live tournaments)

Guitar (playing it)

Writing music

Reading

Writing (for myself)

Listening to music

Spending time alone

Training

I’m really not managing to do alot of the above things. It’s tough as those of you with jobs, ambitions and busy lives will know and agree. I really can’t understand how some of the people I know manage it. I struggle.

This is probably the first post in a long time that I’ve blogged on here that has some sincerity about it. I’ve been extremely unmotivated to blog on here thanks to the demands of SA Rocks and Nudjit. This might not change too soon, but we can always hope!

I’m Having a bad week. Everything seems to be beyond my control, nothing is really within my grasp and I feel properly bleak about things.